LOVE

Recent visit to Terengganu and all the way east coast brought a big shine on my face, again. Since my first step on its land sometimes ago, I have falling, too much in love, I always wanted to be in this place shall I spend the whole day being blow by windy breezy fresh air and carry away with the feelings of carefree, never end freedom. Easy reach in peninsular on my mother’s land, I dream to retire here, live by the beach then build a small bamboo frame shed with dead coconut tree cut as my bench underneath to sit for all time pleasure staring at waves and bubbles that comes and goes, so does listen to whispering coconut leaves.

How wonderful if underneath the shed, I could live the moment with someone I’m in love with, sit together watching the sea, both keep silent and pretend deaf of other noises else than the music of waves, or sometimes do some little soft talking of some little romantic conversations. Believe it or not, being such too close to sandy untouched beaches, I can almost do not know what to do but to give up my brain to my heart to rule everything inside out of me. At times when I witness the sea closely and real, I break my great wall of ego immediately, no idea how and why my eyes could suddenly become watery, melt inside and change to super soft-hearted person such an opposite behaviour I usually pose. But weird, I feel I am really am when I am here, by the beach, at the open sea.

Maybe, I’m not the only one own this feelings or the excitement of having time being blew by the wind heading from the sea, maybe. Know what, I miss the moment each seconds in my life, I always imagine me walking barefoot every single morning, evening or on occasion nights along the beach, moisture my skin with salty water, seriously I don’t mind get mess, I feel I belong here. It is part of my dream too, walking slowly along the shore sides holding hands with my partner, gorgeously lovely, so beautiful and blissful. I want to share this adorable moments with my love who passionately in love with me. I wish it will fond to happen someday, after years and years heartless.

Happy happy happy!!

Oh God, I’m terribly missing the moments. My heart isn’t here.

Upstream Photoghrapher

Hello. I've been busy. Busy taking pictures at the ocean.

Menggapai Bintang

Aku tau

Aku ni ibarat sebutir pasir di tanah gersang

Dan aku tau, aku tak semestinya terbiar

Cuma aku perlu berusaha

Untuk dibawa jauh

Maka jangan perlekehkan aku

Sementelah rupa aku yang amat biasa ini

Juga jangan senyum sinis kearah aku

Ketika aku bertangan kosong papa kedana

Sbb aku tetap akan pergi

Menggapai bintang yang aku idamkan

Impian aku

Always good

It's always good to dream

It's always good to visualize

It's always good to aim high

It's always good to look forward

It's always good to be challenged

It's always good to explore

It's always good to try

Lets always be inspired

For the greatest achievements

Sweet Dive Dream

I was dreaming going to island last night. I seriously hope at least the scene remains in my halucination view before today turn yesterday. Even dream comes seldom in my sleep, I rarely able to remember what I dream right after I get up, that's why sometimes I really pressing hard my medula oblongata to recall what amuse me while I am sleeping. Unless it is a 'sign' dream, I remember it clear and long.

Yesterday Umi and I had an idea when she suggested we hang around in Dive Shop to get into real picture something that we should prepare before our next trip to island. Yeah, we planning to hard core-ly snorkel and me, I'll do revenge the drift in Kapalai Island. U bet I can Umie?? She ask me to bring along the "Diver Manual", a book I fished from Dragon Inn into the shop, and the book must be showed of so that those people in the shop especially the sales person will not look awkwardly at us. Yes, my forehead has an embossed "CAN'T SWIM" & all over my faces has thin lines embroided with "WATER FREAK". Not hydrophobic, I do bathe, okay!. I told her I dont have any transparent bag and the only thing that I can propose is, I'll put the book in a grocs plastic bag to let it noticed. Umie against it, saying that 'jatuhlah standard divers'...Hahah, hipokrit sunggoh kita!! So, to make it look 'standard', I'll read the book at the counter while Umie looking around the gear. I'll shout word by word clearly if you want an advice, Umie. Technical advice inclusive theory facts. Other shop visitors, you all may have it FOC. How bout that babe?? Kewl gile aku time tu. Dah terbayang dah ni. Perasan??

PADI Open Water Diver Manual Ver. 2.08, pg.29

That's why I had the night sweetdream, maybe. I am so looking forward, extremely sensitive about having vacation to isolated islands. I shall go for a swim class ASAP, get diving license, go for dive course thereafter, so I can backhold the gas tank, somersoult into the sea, meeting close with amazing colourful reef and fishes, swim with sharks or even kiss the 5m width turtles (just an imaginary. Kiss - this actually can't be done as according to the DIVER MANUAL, yeah, I read!). The course, has been spoken actively among few friends, yes, I absolutely need it. Come babe, lets go for it!!!

Umie, lets make it, Sumatera Island.

Hydrostatic Pressure

Went for short trip again. Kejap tapi syok!

Kapalai Island off Mabul Island

Thanks to Air Asia (Tony, can i ask for some incentives? or a free tix? *_^) we, I, and 2 other best friends could make a vacation to Sabah Islands. World divers spot.

Flying Tawau

Rush a bus ride from KL Central to LCCT, we ran early flight at 7.20am to Tawau. Atas flight order nasik lemak sbb tak thn perut damn starving. Tak berapa sedap pun jadik sunggoh sedap. Landed Tawau airport after almost 3 hrs on the air. Pretty excited, that was my 1st time being in Sabah. So I completed Malaysia then! From Tawau Airport, we took a bus with to Tawau town. Busy had noise from a mid-aged guy talking abt his life in Peninsular with his new meet friends, a guy age like us from KL too and from their talking heard the young guy is on his way chasing island with backpack like we do, we didn't hear that the bus driver actually shout to get off the bus at Sabindo for those heading to Semporna. So we had to stop about 3km down. As we made there, first we try to explore if there's something good to taste but we end up a bit unpleasant being in open wet market while we were carrying beg like a lost tourist. Grab a taxi then, we straight up to Sabindo station and immediately pointed a restaurant for our lunch.

Thought that we must step Tawau local favourite spot, we walked in Sabindo plaza nearby for just few minutes, so done. Turning back to station, half way we were stop by a van (the same van approached us when we just arrived by taxi) which was just started its move. Excited seeing the sign “SABINDO – SEMPORNA”, we jumped in and save our sweat from more walking. There u go, journey became exciting from now on. No a/c. To make full of the empty seats, driver hanging around hope he gets more passenger. Reaching sub town, a makcik ride together with us, ask the driver to stop by a supermarket. Makcik brought in 2 boxes, quite bulky each. Not later than that, again the van stopped, this time picking up a family of 5 plus they got bags!! I stared at Umi, Umi looked at me, and we put on our sunglasses, meaning, we were trapped! Hahaha. (Silent sigh). Then, driver pick up another 2 who brought on board 2stacks of eggs, a dozen of 1lit soft drink and few other handy plastic bags. Over packed now. Thought that we could breathe better after that 2 get off after 15mins ride, another 3 awaited. A family with bags! The mother and the daughter ride in, the father not (I guess he rationally thinks that he could break the van wall if he gets in). Van speed up again, terrifyingly like a mad bull. Then the van stopped again. First makcik get off, lift out her boxes. Not long, supercrazy, I almost fainted when the van again stopped picking up a bigger family. The leader, the man had to stand (for real) but bend pushing himself to fit his body in the full occupied space that he might not possibly touch his ass. Nothing I could say than saying to myself, “I love this challenge” (fake). At once, I was and I am so grateful that I have my own transport to move around and living in the sustainable area where public transportation is easy to approach to everywhere. Seriously I thank god. Unsatisfied with the situation, finally we reached Semporna safely without any scratched. Alhamdulillah.

First night was in Dragon Inn, a floating hotel which offers very cheap price for that comfort, cosy stay. Umie n I share a worth twin bed room complete with must utilities a hotel’s room should have, while Jun pay for a budget room, apparently a dorm fit for 10 person, open for all. Good enough if I were a guy. Satisfied with the room, we then walked to Bahrman Office, who Umie had negotiated earlier about our transport to the islands, also the overnight. We passed by Scuba Junkie and could see it was busy with Mat (hot tanned guy(s), wowee!) and Minah Saleh selecting their diving gear. That night, we had our seafood at nearby restaurant near hotel for a mega-cheap price.

Before & After - Anjung Restaurant, off Dragon Inn.

Day after, we finally reached Bahrman backpackers lodge at about 9am. Real fun, excitement begins...go check My Flickr.

From our lodge

Capturing hot-tanned diver's instructor on the passing boat. Scuba Junkie hottie. The man is mine ok!! Umie, take note!.

I would really want to have the trip all written in here. But I just can't stand my eyes. All I can say is...I seriously hope I can again see that Scuba Junkie hottie! Hahahaha.. In my dream.

~lalalalalalalalalalalalala~

New Touch of Interests

Another day off.

I would prefer go to office and reduce my workload. But being sick is so pathetic. Even I try to push myself hard to keep doing my normalities, I just couldn't achieve it since my brain working against my desire, yeah right, brain knows better. Besides, my dear strictly insist me to have at least one more day rest when he heard me saying I'll need to come to work today. So here I am, writing for the sake of killing my boredom at home.

Oh ya, advantage of being away from office work, I have just created a Flickr account and had already load some pictures. Be with my dear baby who has passion in doing artwork, graphic and photoghraphs, he does inspire and drag me into this and well, I love to adopt it as my hobby or perhaps a freelance job? Lately, I found that I love taking pictures, not only from static angle, but unique, so the subjects. I need to buy a good camera..Badly. Any sponsor?? *wink*

Below, is my trial.

I wonder the purpose of the bench. But I truly love and thought that is unique how it was abandonly placed. Foreigner passing by, complete the shot frame, perfect. However, I need to further edit, there's slope that spoil the perspective. Right baby, pro? Teach me.

My model. They are extremely adorable and love the camera. Camera love them too. Highly talented by their natural pose.

Splash!!! One of my favourite shot

There will be more and more after this. I need to stay healthy, positive, and will certainly explore more interests. Tawau will be my next landing soon, in journey of capturing west islands.

Cast Away

The feeling is always good back at home.

Been away from home once in a while is an advantage, sometimes. I was a week being like a cast away, floating on South China Sea.

Miri [09-13 June]

Though it was extremely tiring especially for day first and it was my first time, the experience I gain supply me so much value into my career and adding more variety into self-knowledge, indeed. In spite collecting my work needs, there were so much I learn about life through out the journey and while floating on the open sea on the barge. Again, I was and am thinking, it seems the world is so big until I see only one straight horizontal line at far end and the elevation is so high from top of the sky to my max height and down from my bare foot to seabed, but still I feel like I'm pinched..why? Know what, there's no more space in this world which can secure life. World is too old to shelter accessive lives who produce hazards more than it can treat and world is fed up negotiating with human abuse.

Tsunami took more than 200k lives when it struck most asia countries, Sichuan earthquake deny more than 100k lives, Cyclone Nargis caused fatal to quite same figures, many thousands died in war, in Iraq, Afghan, Timor Timor, Pakistan, Palestin, etc. This is massive. What about domestic crime? Road accident? If we take as many safety precaution also, it wont secure. It will never secure, at now. We live in a very critical situation. What is keep on coming and will never let go???....

I ask few friends about death. Impressively most says they are not afraid. Truely, I am afraid. I am afraid because I have no preparation. Ya Allah, give me your HIDAYAH. I beg, pls... Until I am ready, pls reserve my breath.

...I know that death is coming. To everyone that lives..

Kapas Island [14-16 June]