Coincidently meeting someone familiar and cute but hardly can talk with really a good start for a first working day this year. I was in good shape at the beginning, saw him but pretending I didn’t notice his existence until when we get closer and exchange smile, I became a bit run off the track and start walking like there’s a dog chasing after me. Shuck, what am I doing???? Never mind, my main objective is to come to work so personal life is auto-hidden within the office territory. Hypocrite, do I?? Smile. Who cares!
This newly year, I don’t want to make any certain planning, but thinking that I should give myself chances to let my heart do most of the talking and processing. I will let my life flow naturally, make it more simple. Growing further actually put me in thoughts of shrinking. Back to having significant joint pain today reminds me of shorter life span I do have. Health isn’t going smooth but I’m grateful I’m doing just fine but I realize getting old faster, time moves supersonic, I got too many plans planned in previous years remain unsettle, I don’t grasp any achievement, I have nothing, I’m still less than ordinary and lonely.
This newly year, I don’t want to make any certain planning, but thinking that I should give myself chances to let my heart do most of the talking and processing. I will let my life flow naturally, make it more simple. Growing further actually put me in thoughts of shrinking. Back to having significant joint pain today reminds me of shorter life span I do have. Health isn’t going smooth but I’m grateful I’m doing just fine but I realize getting old faster, time moves supersonic, I got too many plans planned in previous years remain unsettle, I don’t grasp any achievement, I have nothing, I’m still less than ordinary and lonely.
After all, I know I am more comfortable in my own loop, being less or too ordinary even not all the time, is what I always wanted to. So long I give away my heart warring with head who always won the battle while the result not always impressive. My brain has often ready with a list of pros and cons, future risk assessment, prejudice, immediate judgement, after all, I get higher statistical frustrations, breakdown my heart follow at the end screwed up my brain too. I have decided, I will just flow myself, free and easy and flexible.
I hear quite loud these days my heart says. I need to put some effort to console my heart. I wish someone who has the right key to unlock my heart come up front, blow away the gloom, bring in happiness shall him shows in charm. I can say it is a little bit hard after years, but do try. I’ll try too. Someone heartless like me needs help in rising soul. Seriously, I want to feel again, to love and love and so love and in love with someone and be so much loved before I sleep.
2009, I’m totally sentimental. No doubt.
I hear quite loud these days my heart says. I need to put some effort to console my heart. I wish someone who has the right key to unlock my heart come up front, blow away the gloom, bring in happiness shall him shows in charm. I can say it is a little bit hard after years, but do try. I’ll try too. Someone heartless like me needs help in rising soul. Seriously, I want to feel again, to love and love and so love and in love with someone and be so much loved before I sleep.
2009, I’m totally sentimental. No doubt.
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